An amazing partner....

I talked to an old friend today and I started thinking I need to reflect....
 I thought I would take a break from posting allll about being pregnant and focus a little on my husband.

Since the day I met John my world has never been the same.
In my past I had a couple rough and serious relationships. My first was my high school sweetheart, Drew. He was funny and smart and always kept me laughing. He took the girl I was and helped her become a more independent and strong woman. I married Drew. Sadly I lost Drew to Hodkins Lymphoma shortly after graduation. This pushed me into what I call being self destructive and terrified that I would live a life alone where nobody would ever accept me. (A lot of that had to do with his family and things they said out of anger) I have come to terms with the fact that the hateful things said were not directed at me but I got most of them because you can't attack cancer. I met my ex-husband, Craig. He promised me the world and gave me nothing but pain and abuse. He made me believe that I would never find someone to "put up" with me. After many sad nights and crying myself to sleep I finally realized that I would risk being alone for the rest of my life because that was a better future then staying, so I left!
That's when I met my husband, John. Now John found me and I was broken. I lost a love and was abused by another. I was not in anyway what you would call an eligible bachlorette! I was trying to find who I am and what I wanted to do with my life. John showed me that I am a beautiful person. He was always so supportive and understanding. Eventually I found that he brought out the best in me. I fell into a type of love I had never felt. Unconditional and amazing. When he asked me to marry him I just couldn't believe how lucky I was.
John and I just celebrated our 1 year wedding anniversary. Feels like just yesterday we were cuddling on recliners in my bachelor like pad and talking about the hell I had gone through. We aren't perfect and yes we fight but I love John and best of all I can trust him with my heart.

John is the most amazing husband I could ever ask for. Best of all he is also going to be the most amazing father to our baby boy, Lincoln!
John has a way of being totally calm in every situation and keeping me calm as well. He is my rock.
The most amazing feeling in this world is knowing that my husband and I are making this family together and how great it will be to show my children how a woman is supposed to be treated. Lincoln is still so so small but I can't help but know that his daddy will make him into a wonderful husband for a lucky little girl someday.

John I don't know how often you read my blog or if you ever read it. But in case you do....I am so blessed in life with you and thank you for taking me as I am and accepting my best and worst parts and loving me all the same no matter what.